Christmas With An Eating Disorder

So since it's almost christmas and people with eating disorder's feel the pressure even more than most other holidays. It's a time where most families join together and have one big christmas meal. I never enjoyed this, every year i can never escape this horrid tradition, i mean if i said no to the food and had a yoghurt or something my family would immediately know something was up. They would have no doubt in their mind and would send me straight to get checked into a hospital. Since i already am one of the baby's of the family.
For christmas aside from presents, the whole day leads up to the christmas meal, we have it around the middle of the day, in between lunch and dinner, there is a ton of food and as you can probably tell, i am dreading it. I going to start practising my purging, just for the christmas day meal, it will be hard but there is no way im going to gain weight over the christmas holiday and come back to school in january a few pounds or even half a stone heavier! No freakin' way!
So my advice to people struggling with their ed over christmas, maybe it's your first christmas with an ed or maybe your spending it with lots of food this year, i suggest you to treat it like any other day and any other meal. Since for christmas dinners there is always i wide selection of food, put very small amount of everything on your plate, if anyone asks questions, say you want to try everything. Don't eat too little that your family will become suspicious but not too much that you will want to purge or cut.
Remember, treatment will make you gain a lot more weight than one christmas meal will.

Much Love, Sophie xoxo

FAMILY DINNER!

So dinner was...how would you say it...WRETCHED!
We had mashed potato, carrots, chicken & stuffing. For drinks i had orange juice, i would have asked for water but they had made juice for everyone and it was already on the table when i got there. I avoided desert and had a cup of tea-no sugar, and a biscuit.
I didn't purge when i came home or cut my wrists because ive been very busy with just sooo many things. I was feeling bad for a while but i had a talk with my dad, not about my ed but about christmas and school and i feel a lot better, i really love my dad, he's my rock, the person i turn to when i need help and i hope to God he'll be here when i crash and burn.

What's everyone asking for, for christmas. I need some ideas of what to get people! :)

Much Love, Sophie xoxo

I Have A Follower!!

Hey!!!!!
I finally have a blog follower, so excited about that, LOL!

So as far as updates go i have to go to a family dinner tonight which i am very unhappy about, i like to stay as far away from food as i can, and this is NOT helping!
I'm on my "time of the month thing" which makes me feel bloated, hungry all the time and FAT! Which is why ive chosen to not weigh myself this morning, but im about to take a shower so i will then, once i get back from the dinner i will weigh myself again and see if there's a big difference, that will decipher if i chose to cut myself or not.

Who's excited for xmas? NOT ME
Unfortunately it just reminds me how my dad is not bothered to put up decorations or buy my christmas presents and its just a rubbish depressing day all together.

Will update you all later today, much love
xoxo sophie